Roger Ebert is probably the best-known of film critics. His column in the
Chicago Sun-Times and subsequent television shows were checked consistently by
movie buffs to see whether a film would be worthy of their time and money.
However, I think the saddest review I've read by Ebert is his review of his own
search to make sense of God.
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Photo courtesy Roger Ebert |
In a
column
he wrote a couple of years ago, Ebert recounts:
"When I was in first or
second grade and had just been introduced by the nuns to the concept of a
limitless God, I lay awake at night driving myself nuts by repeating over and
over, But how could God have no beginning? And how could he have no end? And
then I thought of all the stars in the sky: But how could there be a last one?
Wouldn't there always have to be one more? Many years later I know the answer to
the second question, but I still don't know the answer to the first one."
Ebert loved his religion classes as a child because they would talk about
hypotheticals of what counts as sin, how a person is culpable for sins they
committed (or didn't know they committed), and all the ramifications of the
various scenarios. This approach was to teach Ebert "theoretical thinking and
applied reasoning, and was excellent training." He writes that at about nine or
ten "I no longer lost any sleep over the questions of God and infinity. I
understood they could have no answers. At some point the reality of God was no
longer present in my mind… Over the high school years, my belief in the
likelihood of a God continued to lessen."
Now, although reticent to label
himself an atheist or an agnostic, Ebert completely dismisses the idea of "any
God who has personally spoken to anyone or issued instructions to men." He
writes:
"I'm still struggling with the question of how anything could have no
beginning and no end. These days I'm fascinated by it from the point of view of
science. I cannot know everything, but I approach matters in terms of what I do
and can know. Science is not 'secular.' It is a process of honest
investigation."
Tomorrow I will
answer Ebert's question on God, but I want to
note a couple of observations today. First, Ebert's story highlights a
very real need for teaching apologetics in the church, and beginning to do so
very early. Many Christians and even many pastors today think that focusing on
apologetic arguments are a lot of head knowledge when what people really need is
teaching Jesus and how to live today. But look at Ebert's story. His
favorite time learning was when he and his classmates were discussing
implications of God and sin, and this was in grade school! It wasn't too
lofty a subject for them, it stimulated them and made them want to know more, so
much so that they'd lay on the grass after school and talk about it. Imagine
your kids hanging with their friends during play time discussing theological
concepts and wrestling with their implications.
Secondly, the lack of
knowledge in apologetics by Ebert's teachers and parents were his ultimate
undoing. When asking his favorite nun about the dilemma of God having no
beginning, she replied "that is just something you have to believe. Pray for
faith." As you can imagine, it was an unsatisfying. Ebert would then say "I lay
awake wondering how I could pray for faith to a God I could not believe in
without faith." Let me just say that this nun, who I don't doubt had the best of
intentions, had a wrong understanding of faith and reinforced in the mind of an
inquiring youngster that belief in God is irrational and unworthy of those who
wish to think. Perhaps if she was better trained in some of the great
Catholic theologians like Thomas Aquinas her answer would have been correct.
Ebert's parents also were no help. He says that during his high school
years he never discussed his waning belief in God with them, but that makes me
wonder if they ever discussed religion at all. As an elementary school boy with
big questions about the world, Ebert went to his school teachers. If religion
was a comfortable topic of conversation at home, surely he would have asked his
parents also.
We as parents and teachers need to learn the answers to these questions and talk
about them with our kids. And we need to start earlier rather than later.
Elementary school kids have a wonder about the world and how it works, and we
should be offering them the greatest truths to stimulate that wonder. Don't
simply rely on the kids' Sunday School teaching to inform them about God.
The Sunday School teacher may not know the answer, or may offer the wrong
answer. You need to know these answers yourself, so you can pass them along.
Otherwise, our kids will think that belief in the God of all reason falls
outside of reason, and therefore is irrelevant. And that breaks my heart.